I am in a good frame of mind right now, so I thought I would write a quick post, as we may have found a solution to my problem.
I went to see my SPN this morning and had e very tearful session in which I let my heart speak and told her all the bad things that were on my mind and together we tried to find a solution. We tossed around all sorts of ideas, but I was feeling kind of hopeless and could really not see the forest for the trees.
Finally I said, "Could it be the new medication?" and she said that she had just been thinking the same thing. She promised to talk to my psychiatrist and call me at home if he was of the opinion if maybe that was the problem.
She called me this afternoon to tell me that they think that the new antipsychotic is not working for me and is causing me to have these extremely depressive moods and my psychiatrist made some crucial phone calls and, because of absolute medical necessity, has gotten permission for me to go back to my original antipsychotic medication, for which I won't have to pay a penny. Isn't that a wonderful thing? He must have twisted some arms to get that done, so I am very grateful.
I picked up the medication this afternoon and already took one pill and will take another one tonight. It will take a few days for it to build up in my system, but I should be in better shape soon.
So, I just wanted you to know that and to hope with me that there maybe is light at the end of the tunnel.