It's too early to go back to bed, so I'll have to find a way to amuse myself for about an hour or so. There are various ways I can do that, but I have exhausted just about all of them. I do need to keep myself occupied during these quiet hours in the middle of the night and I try my very best to. I spent much time on Facebook and had to quit that venue before I made a pest of myself. The great thing on Facebook is that you can ignore any sort of nonsense you run across and so I hope my nonsense will be ignored too. Luckily, there is no "dislike" button because that would hurt.
I've had enough coffee to put me in a very good mood, but I've had to stop drinking it so that I will slow down mentally and prepare my state of mind for a return to the bedroom and some necessary sleep. I do like the little high that I get from the caffeine every night that I sit here because it's a total thrill. For a little while it's like I consumed a "happy" pill. Of course, it doesn't last and after that I'm only wide awake and need to come back down to earth. That's not a sudden happening, I slowly drift down again in about an hour's time.
I had enough sense to do the dishes last night, so if I get up late in the morning like I did yesterday, it won't matter. My personal helper is going to be here early and I think I may be in danger of sleeping too long and I am reluctant to set the alarm clock because I want all the sleep I can get. You wouldn't say so given the evidence of me sitting here in the middle of the night, but I really do like to sleep. I am just not very good at it. I only sleep well when I am away from home. It's because I feel safer.
Today I have to call my psychiatrist and tell him about increasing my one medication by 1 mg and ask him to fax a prescription to the pharmacy for tablets of that dose. Otherwise I'm going to have to start cutting tablets in half and they don't have a dividing line, so that may not be so accurate. I will first have to convince him of the necessity of the increase, but I don't think that will be too difficult because I will sound like a perfectly sane person, which I am. I feel that I should have been on this dose all along. I have been on the edge of being hypomanic, if not actually hypomanic, for quite some time.
I am starting to yawn, so that's a good sign. Within minutes I will be in bed and sound asleep again. Oh yes, I also have to call the doctor's office and find out the results of that blood test. It will be an interesting day. But first, sleep!