Thursday, April 02, 2009

A Brand New Day.

Here I am sitting with my second creamy mug of coffee and the loyal Überhund at my feet. I have taken my trusty medications to ward off any kind of mood and I am ready to face the day, which is sunny again with bright blue skies. Today is my day off, meaning I don't have to go anywhere, so I can dawdle for a while and take my time getting the day started.

Last night I took a nap on the sofa, but when I woke up, I did not feel better and figured the evening was sort of lost to me. I watched "Lewis" on television, but did not follow the plot very well and could not tell you what it was about. I think I had the computer on for a while, but shut it off in frustration and went back to sleep.

I have been sleeping on the sofa for almost two months now and all the times I told you I went to bed, I lied and really went to sleep on the sofa. I have no real explanation for it, except that I like sleeping on the sofa better and don't want to lie in my bed. I fall asleep with the TV turned down low and wake up to the repeat of the morning news. It's a secret that nobody knows about. Odd behavior on my part, I suppose. It's the only strange thing I do really, so I'm not too worried about it.

Well, now I have to get in the proper mood for this brand new day. I don't really know how that's done, although I think it involves straightening my back and keeping a stiff upper lip, something I'm sure Dutch people are as capable of as English people. Especially if they are Dutch Reformed or descendant thereof. It must be the old Saxon blood coursing through my veins that makes it so. I only have to think back to my own grandmother to see both ingredients personified.

The Überhund has had his breakfast and is being very impatient, but I'm going to try and ignore him for a bit, that usually works and he calms down again. I need one more mug of coffee to be operational and then I'll be ready to take on the world. Besides, it's much too cozy to get up yet and get dressed and go out there in the not so early morning.

The Exfactor was here yesterday to use my washing machine for the last time. He has bought one of his own and it will be delivered to his house soon. So, that takes away one excuse to come here again, but I am sure he will stop by for many cups of coffee still. He bought me Senseo coffee pads with Brazilian coffee and it tastes very nice. No flavor coffee is wasted on me, I like them all. The stronger, the better. Right now I have extra dark roast and mocca, beside decaf. I make the decaf extra strong too, so I taste no difference between it and the regular coffee.

Well, I suppose I will get going now, although it is with some aversion. I guess I don't want the day to start at all, but to just keep sitting here in my bathrobe. Maybe I'm ready for a vacation.

Have a good day, you all, and good weather, although you can't help that.



Frances said...

hope those meds do the job again, Irene. It is hard to take the swings, but they still sound much milder than in the past. You will come through this - you know you will. Your imagination and creativity and flair for living will switch on and take you out of the dumps. How is the artwork going?
Be easy with yourself, if sleeping on the sofa feels more cosy and reassuring, what the heck? it's your life, your flat and your sofa. You can sleep wherever you like, just so long as you get some sleep, makes no difference.
Maybe you can use the other room as your bedroom once it is cleared out and use your old bedroom as your workroom - just to give yourself a complete change of mood.

Maggie May said...

Irene, its your sofa and your bed so you can sleep anywhere you like. You don't have to give us explanations.
I think you do very well considering what you have to put up with concerning the mood swings etc.
Hope you get some enjoyment out of the rest of the day. X

The Gossamer Woman said...

Frances, yes, my mood swings are milder than in the past and i know how to deal with them better. Sleep is very important, I must never forget that and the extra medication is helping me a lot.

I think the idea of switching the bedroom and the workroom sound excellent. It had never dawned on me to do that. It makes complete sense.I will start taking care of it as soon as I can financially swing it. Thanks for this every good tip.

The Gossamer Woman said...

Maggie, you're right, I can sleep wherever I want (see Frannces' tip). I think I am uncomfortable in the old bedroom. Frances may have come up with the perfect solution. XOX