Sunday, April 05, 2009
Warmer Leggings Weather.
I've just been out to walk the Überhund and it wasn't really cold out, but not the nice day it was Friday, so I decided not to wear the lacy leggings, but the warmer ones that I've been wearing all winter. I want to save the lacy leggings for really sunny springtime days, when going bare legged is still too risky and I still want to wear my boots. At this point, I can't imagine wearing my boots with bare legs, but don't put it past me. You never now, I may be one of those cowgirls.
Speaking of boots, my toe is getting a little bit better and it now hurts only half as much as it did, which is quite an improvement. I haven't done anything to it but wear my two pairs of new boots and I think they fit well and make the toe heal better. That darn toe! Isn't it amazing how such a little digit can cause you so much discomfort? I thought at times of chopping it off, but then that seemed so drastic.
I have been sleeping so well lately. I didn't wake up this morning until 9:30 and that was only because the dog woke me as he was trying to be petted by me. My hand was hanging over the edge of the sofa and he decided that hand needed to pet him. When that hand didn't cooperate, he complained about it.
The real issue was that he wanted to eat, as both his dishes were empty, so I fed him his Butcher's and then he went into a coma for a while to digest it all. That always gives me some extra time to wake up and have enough coffee so that I can become functional and coherent.
But then again, who's to say when I really have my bright moments of the day? It's all a question of how you interpret my words and actions and they can be quite different depending on when you talk to me and how much of my medication I have had. Will the real Irene please stand up? She keeps standing up all day, but which one is the real one? I think at any given moment of the day, part of me is real, but it is never the complete picture. Maybe that is true for all of us and I am just finding that out.
I don't know about you, but I spent a long time of my life searching for the real me and it is only in these past several years that I have found her. It has been a surprising discovery, because much of what I turn out to be I like, and is completely appositive to how I had been living my life before, and that was so cramped and claustrophobic that it drove me crazy. The way I always thought I ought to live my life, turned out to be completely against my nature and I needed something completely different.
The way I thought I ought to live my life, was hammered into me by the people who raised me and by the environment I was brought up in, which was very narrow minded and bourgeois. It seemed there were no other options and I dutifully followed the expectations. Get married to a promising man, buy a washing machine and a dryer and have babies and live happily ever after, or not, but pretend that you do. Don't escape your fate!
There is nothing worse then being a round peg being forced to fit into a square hole. It just doesn't work, no matter how hard you try. You will be most miserable from being hammered on and seeing yourself fail and not finding the exit sign. Needless to say, once you do and escape, you feel like a miscreant.
Anyway, after all those years, I've figured myself out and I'm not unhappy with the outcome. It needs a little tweaking here and there, but for the most part it is okay. I could have done a lot worse. The fact that I am just a little bit eccentric is not bad, I believe everybody should be to make it an interesting world. I come with an instruction booklet, but I can tell you about it all personally, down to the smallest detail.
One thing I may never figure out, is how to have a successful relationship with a member of the opposite sex, but I think it has a very low priority on my list of things I want right now. I can think of ten things I want to do badly before I would come to that one. So, it is not a major headache. As a matter of fact, the issue is as tiny as an ant, you'd need a microscope to appreciate it. There are relationships in my life that are more important that I want to invest energy in.
Well, talk about wasting time, not that we were, but I am wasting it, but then again it is Sunday and a day of rest, although I just realized that it is the first Sunday of the month and all the shops are open. Mmm...is that something I can resist?
Have yourself a wonderful day. The sun has come out here for some strange reason, but I will not question it and merely accept it.
Some of the Exfactor's photographs as a treat. I have them stored in my folders.