Sunday, April 26, 2009
What I have to remember!
I have to remember, that when my mood is very flat and I'm dragging my body through life like it is a sack of potatoes and I can't seem to get happy and excited, that I need to go and sleep! It's an absolute prerogative and it doesn't matter what time of the day it is and what I should be doing instead, because what I must do is sleep a few hours and I will wake up refreshed and much happier and I will no longer be dragging my body through life.
I seem to need a certain amount of sleep that is greater than what the average person needs, at least when my mood is the way it has been lately, and it does me no good to get up at 8 AM and think that I am ready to start the day and that a cup of coffee will clear the cobwebs from my mind and give me the energy I need.
I need to take my medications and go back to sleep as long as it doesn't interfere with me having to be somewhere at a certain time. I think that on the mornings that I need to get an early start, I must try to go to sleep early the night before and try to let nothing interfere with my sleep and sleep until the alarm clock goes off.
I must get this absolutely straight in my head and it seems to me that it's a lesson I should have learned by now, but it fakes me out and confuses me and makes me make the same mistake over and over again.
This morning I was all ready to take a long nap when the Exfactor showed up for several cups of coffee. He said he didn't want me to feel lonely on a Sunday, which was very kind of him. After he left, I walked the Überhund and then turned on the TV to some inane program that didn't interest me and fell asleep and slept for several hours and when I woke up, I felt so much better. It was like I started a brand new day with a brand new attitude and suddenly everything didn't seem so difficult anymore.
I did waste the whole afternoon, but what a healthy way to waste it. I have to get that sign out again that tells me to go to sleep and lay it on the coffee table where I can see it and be reminded of it constantly. Aren't I a silly person for not learning my lesson well?
Now it's almost time to take my medications again and to feed the Überhund and put ointment in his eyes. It may be my imagination, but I think Toby is less snotty today, although he is without energy and just sort of hangs around and tries to be as comfortable as he can. Breathing is still difficult.
I am going to change the sheets on my bed and try and sleep in my bed tonight. I have been sleeping on the sofa for a long time now and it isn't always that comfortable. I do wake up with aches and pains here and there. I will miss the noise of the TV, but I will read a book instead, which I haven't done in a long time. I wish I had a small radio, but I don't think I own such a thing. We used to have a portable TV, but I don't know what happened to it.
This will force me to clean up the bedroom, which is a good thing and it won't actually take that long. Then I will take a shower and put on clean pajamas and watch some TV, just like a regular person. Can it get any better than that?
The Überhund has woken up, so I must now feed him and all the rest. I am happy that I got to write a more cheerful post before the day was done.
Have a good evening, you all.