Thursday, January 31, 2013

Before the day starts again.

Three days worth of dishes are sitting on the kitchen counter waiting for me to get them done and, because of my horrible state of mind, I never did get around to them. It is my intention to do them this morning as soon as I can gather myself together. The last thing I want to happen is for me to be intimidated by them. If I rinse them first and stack them neatly, they will not look so unsurmountable. When you do get around to doing something finally, you do have to have a good method of attack. 

I do have to nostalgically look back on the weekend now when doing any kind of chore was a piece of cake. I did not have to sit here and contemplate doing any of them beforehand, but without giving them much thought just went ahead and did them. Now it seems that I am agonizing over them and I am not proud of that attitude. I have to find the motivating factor and I think I will invite the Exfactor over for coffee and get things done before he gets here. That will be like a stick behind the door. 

 I am not going to pretend that I am happier than I am. I feel fairly down in the dumps and the worst thing I can do is act like that is not the case. That does not mean that I am going to wallow in my misery, but that I am acknowledging that things could be better than they are. I do not feel helpless because I assume there is a solution to my pasrticular difficult situation. I just have to go through the process of finding out which one it is and I do have to keep in mind when the days were better than this.

At least I do not have the awful stomachache I had yesterday, although I do have some discomfort and have stopped drinking coffee and have switched to ice water. In my misplaced frugality, I have been using the same tall glass for three days and I think it is about time that I start using a clean one. It is possible to take things to an extreme. Luckily, or should I say, unfortunately, I have not used all the same dishes for three days which has caused the big stack of them. 

I think before I do anything, I will go back to bed and sleep some more to get a better start. The morning is young atill and there is no need to rush.


2 comments:

Rob-bear said...

Well! I am so sorry that you're feeling the way you do. I can commiserate, because I'm feeling the same way. Sadly! Grrrr!

My stack of dishes is only one day old, and I hope to get to them later today.

It is -45°C (that's -49°F) t mid-morning. What a perfect excuse to go back to bed! I hope you sleep well.

Blessings and Bear hugs.

Odette said...

whenever i feel down and out, i would let the music blare through the house and busy myself doing household chores. washing dishes would be a good start, then fixing the cabinets and cupboards, ironing clothes, dusting, scrubbing the bathroom floors, etc. it keeps my mind off my depression and when i see the things i have accomplished, it makes me feel better and happy.