Three days worth of dishes are sitting on the kitchen counter waiting for me to get them done and, because of my horrible state of mind, I never did get around to them. It is my intention to do them this morning as soon as I can gather myself together. The last thing I want to happen is for me to be intimidated by them. If I rinse them first and stack them neatly, they will not look so unsurmountable. When you do get around to doing something finally, you do have to have a good method of attack.
I do have to nostalgically look back on the weekend now when doing any kind of chore was a piece of cake. I did not have to sit here and contemplate doing any of them beforehand, but without giving them much thought just went ahead and did them. Now it seems that I am agonizing over them and I am not proud of that attitude. I have to find the motivating factor and I think I will invite the Exfactor over for coffee and get things done before he gets here. That will be like a stick behind the door.
I am not going to pretend that I am happier than I am. I feel fairly down in the dumps and the worst thing I can do is act like that is not the case. That does not mean that I am going to wallow in my misery, but that I am acknowledging that things could be better than they are. I do not feel helpless because I assume there is a solution to my pasrticular difficult situation. I just have to go through the process of finding out which one it is and I do have to keep in mind when the days were better than this.
At least I do not have the awful stomachache I had yesterday, although I do have some discomfort and have stopped drinking coffee and have switched to ice water. In my misplaced frugality, I have been using the same tall glass for three days and I think it is about time that I start using a clean one. It is possible to take things to an extreme. Luckily, or should I say, unfortunately, I have not used all the same dishes for three days which has caused the big stack of them.
I think before I do anything, I will go back to bed and sleep some more to get a better start. The morning is young atill and there is no need to rush.