Monday, June 22, 2009

Hanging in there...

I've dealt with the mail. With much trepidation I opened all the envelopes and much to my relief, everything was much simpler and less complicated than I had anticipated, so I dealt with all of it and at the same time brought my administration in order and I just got back with Jesker from a walk to the local mailbox. There, that's done for now until the next round of mail.

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I wrote the above a few hours ago. Since then I've had a phone call that has set me back quite a bit and to be honest with you, my mood has plummeted and I'm not sure if I'm going to finish writing this post, because I can't discuss with you the nature of the phone call without seriously damaging someone's reputation, yet I don't like to write in riddles.

I don't know if this has caused permanent damage to the mood I was in, but I'm afraid I'm not doing so well right now. A ghost from the past is haunting me and I would say that is very bad timing coming as it does after my wonderful memories of my son.

I feel I am back in the old territory of sadness and pain and it feels as familiar as an old worn coat."Oh yes," my whole being is saying, "We know this, we feel right at home here."

Suffice it to say that I'm making this a very short post, because I have no happiness in me to write anything cheerful.

Sorry about that.

Ciao...

10 comments:

aims said...

Oh my friend. How I wish I could be of some kind of help.

If you need me you know where to find me.

btw - the glasses look wonderful on you. No wonder you like them so much.

paperbatty said...

Oh, Irene. I'll be thinking of you. I really don't know what to say but that.

lebanesa said...

hugs

VioletSky said...

Oh Irene, I know how ghosts can haunt and taunt. Does knowing that we are here for you help? I certainly hope so.

Lane Mathias said...

As you say in your title -

Hang in there Irene. x

John M. Mora said...

take.care

flowers said...

I'm very sorry my news brought you down. Your feedback and point of view were very helpful though, and a bad situation is now much improved. I think you should be really proud of where you are and try not to let echoes from so long ago drag you down. It's not worth it, really.

Love you, your kiddo

Babaloo said...

Hang in there and don't let it get you down too much. Whatever 'it' is. Take the dog for a long, refreshing walk, somewhere you've not been for a while. Let the sunshine (hope you're having some) cheer you up. And go to a cafe to sit and watch people. It'll help, I'm sure.

I'm with aims - the glasses look good on you!

laurie said...

oh, irene, i'm so sorry. we're here for you. take your meds. go to sleep. things will improve in the morning.

Maureen said...

Oh I am so sorry to read this so late. I am sorry. Off to read more, hopefully this was resolved soon. Take care my friend.