Save a little money each month and at the end of the year you'll be surprised at how little you have.
New life has been blown into my desire and need to move up North to Emmen. I had just about given up on the idea because I could not get the funds together, but this morning my personal helper was here and she said that my need to move was just too great to ignore and that there had to be a solution. She mentioned several governmental and charitable agencies to get in contact with to ask for help and told me to get on the internet and start looking around for more and she would do the same thing.
I have been searching on the internet and writing emails and letters all afternoon and will no doubt be doing more of that tomorrow. I am not too embarrassed to approach anybody to ask for help and, since I am also a psychiatric patient, anything at all is possible. I am meant to live in Emmen to be close to my family and friends and if there is a way to make it happen, I will find it. I do not want to grow old and lonely here in Maastricht and need to be up North.
I already feel better just by being able to make these attempts and maybe making more. I have hope in my heart now and feel that what I want to come true may actually happen. At least I feel a careful optimism and I certainly dd not feel that yesterday when all I felt was gloomy and sad. I need to feel that there are possibilities and answers and if one person can not help me, then maybe he or she can point me to the right place to go to.
I thought that 2013 was going to be a much easier year than it is turning out to be, but it is apparently a year in which I am going to be tested and have to work harder to achieve the things that I want than before. I am finding it more difficult to look at the world through rose colored glasses and I think those days are over and I am confronted with a different kind of reality. It turned out to be impossible anyway to go through life like Polly Anna and think only good would happen and that every ending would be happy. That was rather naive of me and I suppose I am learning another wise lesson.