One of the best ways of keeping your temper in an argument, as most of us know only too well, is not to listen to anything the other person has to say.
- Alice Miller.
In this process of getting the money together to be able to move, it is very important not to lose hope and to very much be like a bull terrier and to not let go of whatever possibilities there are. I am very persistent and do not look at the problem as something that I am not going to be able to solve. I will find a way, but sometimes it does set my nerves on edge and I am glad that I take the tranquilizers 3 times a day.
Last night, my stomach was upset and I think it was stress related, but happily, everything seems back to normal now and I can even drink glasses of ice cold lemonade. I had gotten a complicated email from one possible financial source right at dinnertime and I had to read it 3 times before I understood it properly and could write a response to it and even then I had my doubts.
2013 Seems to be the year in which everything is harder than it originally looked. It is the year that is going to test my patience and my wits and my staying power. I suppose that everything that has happened so far before this, has been a test to see if I would be able to withstand it. But if you want something badly enough, you will do anything to make your dream come true, and that means that you are capable of performing under high pressure (with a little help from your medicines).
Deadlines of waiting lists for apartments will approach and because I do not know the times on which I will achieve my financial goals, I may have to let some of them pass and go to the back of the line. I may see this as the course of fate and end up in the apartment that I am really supposed to live in, but it is not my intention to take such a passive attitude. If I can help the process along somehow, I will do so. After that I will patiently wait.
I know that I must not be willful and force the issue against its natural flow and that I have to let some things take their own time. I must trust the process and the good intentions of other people, but not to the point that I could be accused of being naive.