Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than anybody expects of you. Never excuse yourself.
Being sensible and sage agrees with me much better than being willful and stubborn and trying to make a dream come true at all cost and being reckless in the process. That is one great insight I gained over the last couple of days. It is like I finally came to my senses and can see the forest for the trees again and see that I was about to make some desperate moves that were not at all in my best interests.
I was desperately in search of money to finance my move up north, because I thought that the quicker I moved, the better it would be for me. I was just about ready to sell my first born to finance the project and thought of all sorts of schemes to get the money together. I think I became very unrealistic in my quest as I saw myself moving up quickly on several of the waiting lists and thought that my time to arrange it all was running out.
I have stepped out of the rat race and realize that by careful budgeting, I am going to have to save the money for the move myself and that it is going to take longer than I initially thought was necessary. I have taken myself off the lists of apartments that I was very close to the top of and now am only on waiting lists that are still relatively long.
The truth of the matter is, that now I am on the lists for apartments that I really like better than the ones that would have been available quickly. And they are not 55+ apartments, which somehow also makes me feel better. I think I was not ready to be surrounded only by senior citizens, because I am myself too young at heart still.