Monday, May 26, 2014

Tomorrow, tomorrow...

I am a bit worried about getting all the chores done before my American ex gets here and frankly, a very mild panic is grabbing a hold of me. I have to tell myself to calm down and very reasonably think this through and come up with a solution. It is not that there needs to be an awful lot done, but they are all chores that require someone with a strong back, which I don't happen to have at the moment. I am fearful of doing any bending and twisting and lifting in case of doing further harm. As of yet, I don't know exactly what is really wrong with my back and until I find out, I don't want to do anything that will mess it up further. 

Of course, at the same time I want to stay perfectly relaxed and act like there is nothing wrong and move about completely at ease. I try to use all the relaxation techniques that I know and adopt a good posture in whatever position I am in, whether I sit, stand or walk. I think one of the things not to do, is to slouch, so I constantly try to keep my back as straight as I can. I tell you, being mindful of your posture is a full-time job. 

For a change I am glad that the weekend is over, because I could do so little, that I was bored. Normally, I find all sorts of chores to take care of, but that was not in the planning this time. I constantly had to think of ways to amuse myself and cut the days up in little snippets of time in which I did in each one something different than I did in the one before, but sometimes I had a hard time coming up with anything good. In the end, I pretended that I was recuperating from an illness and that this was my rest and relaxation time. That helped a little bit and I also allowed myself a couple of naps. 

I don't recommend self injury because it is a very boring way to spend your days. There is only so much time you can spend behind the computer and you really do run out of dishes to wash. 

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in the morning to discuss my sudden stop of the use of the extra antidepressant and my use of the sleep medication now that I am dealing with extra pain during the night. I didn't think these were matters that could be discussed over the telephone or by email. 

And I have to wear a belt around my pants to keep them up. 






3 comments:

Wisewebwoman said...

I know. I'm a reactive housekeeper too, it is difficult to stay on top of things all the time. I'm sure everything will be fine.

Try and stay healthy and fit :)

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Gail said...

It is wonderful to have visitors coming especially such special people.

Granny always said, Don't clean before company comes. Clean afterwards and you don't have to clean it twice!

Enjoy your guests and heal quickly.

Gail said...

It is wonderful to have visitors coming especially such special people.

Granny always said, Don't clean before company comes. Clean afterwards and you don't have to clean it twice!

Enjoy your guests and heal quickly.