On the recommendation of a psychiatrist not my own, I took a sleeping pill last night because I had not slept well the night before and there was some danger of me becoming hypomanic. It was thought that this would be prevented if I had a good night's sleep. I don't think taking a sleeping pill was a great success because I woke up in the middle of the night bathed in sweat and could not go back to sleep. I remembered that this was a problem I had before when I still took them. Now that I am up, I am slowly cooling down, but I feel groggy and not at all pleasant and well put together like I usually do when I get up.
I won't be taking any more sleeping pills as a result of this because all in all it isn't worth the trouble. It isn't as if I slept better all that much and I am going to have to change the bed and take a shower before I can get in it again. I also don't like the feeling of grogginess and much prefer to be clear minded when I sit here gathering my thoughts. There was a reason after all why I quit those sleeping pills. It is good to be reminded of why I did before I get into the habit of taking them again.
As to me becoming hypomanic, I will have to see how today turns out. I have an appointment with my therapist at noontime and we can assess the situation then. Maybe thinking that I was becoming hypomanic was a result of the unusual way my day started yesterday when I could not get in touch with myself quite so easily. I may have a totally different start to the day today.
The cups of coffee I am having are sobering me up and that is a great relief. It has taken two of them to get me to the point that I think I am making enough sense to be sure of any statements I make. But I am sure that I have been making sense through the fog all along. Some common sense does shine through no matter how groggy I was to begin with. Inside all of us, no matter what, there is always that sane person present who speaks for us. It's the one who saves us out of the more prickly situations.
I have broken out in hives, but on my left arm only. It's funny how very selective that is.