Wednesday, June 05, 2013

Change is progress too.

I don't exactly know what happened, but my headaches have disappeared and the state of my mood has improved dramatically too. I think I will never find out which element it was that I changed that brought about this difference, but I sure am grateful that it turned out this way. My whole frame of mind has improved and I see the silver lining around the proverbial clouds again. I sure as heck like this attitude a whole lot better than the one I had, and find it so much easier to live with myself this way. Now I actually think I am a worthwhile person again.
I think it may have something to do with the fact that I have stopped eating peanut butter sandwiches, but also with the fact that I have hardly had any dairy products. You may think that this is all a lot of mumbo jumbo, and maybe it is and I am somehow trying to find a justification for the changes in my mood. Maybe there is a whole different process at work and I need to look at that. I think I will sit down in my armchair in a while and give it some thought. There is that part of me that likes to believe in magical thinking and that somehow wants to have control over everything by influencing the elements of the rituals.
I now cook dinner at lunchtime and fix enough food for two meals so that I can eat it in the evening too. I find this a more satisfactory way to divide up the calories and the energy and nutrients of the food I eat. Having a hot meal at lunchtime is much more filling and satisfying than eating a sandwich and I do much better the rest of the day. I have lots of energy and don't get a dip at the end of the afternoon and I do not get hungry until later in the evening. The food is already made and all I have to do is heat it up, and as I found out, I do not mind cooking one bit because I like the outcome.
I am supposed to mention now that the weather has taken a turn for the better. It actually got up to above 20 degrees Celsius and the sun was shining all day today. The nice thing is that it is going to stay like this for the near future, so I am going to have to dress differently than I have so far. It is time to get my summer clothes out of the closet and I do that with a lot of pleasure. I do have some nice enough things to wear and I look forward to wearing them. One thing I have to do, is paint my toe nails a nice color so that I will be able to wear sandals. What I really need, of course, is a pedicure.
I have to watch the news now and stay well informed. The economy is going very badly, and all we hear is doom and gloom.

1 comment:

Friko said...

Whatever it was that made you feel better, be grateful for it.
It’s no fun being depressed, even mildly.

I hope the upbeat mood lasts. Come the better weather, come the brighter thoughts, Maybe?