Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Being mellow...

I am drinking a Breezer and saw on the bottle that it contains only 4% alcohol. That's not very much and I hope that it is enough to make me mellow and help me go back to sleep in a while. It certainly does taste good and I can understand why it is so popular among the young crowd. It doesn't taste like you're drinking alcohol at all and goes down very easy.
I am mentally preparing myself for the moment when my American ex will arrive, which should be in about 12 hours from now. I suppose I am more nervous about that than I realized now that the time is drawing near. It's not such a little deal to spend a month with someone you were married to for 19 years and whom you divorced in the end because of irreconcilable differences.
Usually, the nervous anticipation of an event is worse than the actual experience, so I will just count on that and assume that most everything will go well. I think for a month it is going to turn me into a regular drinker, otherwise I will have to keep reaching for the tranquilizers and I don't want to do that. Besides, that is not nearly as thirst quenching. The ice cube trays will be used a lot.
I have poured myself another Breezer over ice and I always thought I didn't handle alcohol well, but I do actually. I think it was just a myth I believed in like so many others. All you have to do is relax and accept the mellow part and keep your head about you. There is no reason to get lost in the process and make a big drama out of it.
On another note, I am feeding Tyke less wet food and now he is forced to eat his dried kibbles and he does. He actually eats the whole bowl full and I think it is better for him since he still needs to lose weight. I don't give him too many of the kibbles so he doesn't overeat. I just noticed that he ate his ration for tonight.
I will try to go back to sleep now and hopefully do so until the morning.


Maggie May said...

I agree with you that sometimes the worrying about an event that fills you with dread is often not as bad once it happens. Hoping that you will find that to be the case with this visit. Is you ex staying in your flat for the whole month or just visiting?
It is good that Tyke is eating more of the kibbles.
Hoping the day goes well today.
Maggie x

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Gail said...

Enjoy your visit. The dread is always worse than the actual event.