I will have to drink several cups of coffee more than the one I have just had to become completely coherent, but I am already starting on cup number two, so I should be in better shape soon. It usually also helps to write down my thoughts, so I am going to give that a try and see if I can come up with something good. I do have to share an experience, but I want to make sure that I find the right words to describe it with. I do want to do it justice.
Yesterday afternoon I had my first date in more than 20 years time and I must say that I enjoyed it very much and that it was better than I could have hoped for. Of course, I did not really know what to expect, so I didn't anticipate too much ahead of time, but I secretly did wish for something good to happen. I was ready to accept it if nothing did and walk away from the experience a wiser woman, but that was not necessary. I had a more than a wonderful time.
I had never had a date with a woman before, but ahead of it I already felt a lot calmer than I always had for a date with a man in the past, so I thought that was a good omen. I did not really get nervous about it until the first half hour into the date when I thought I was blathering a bit of nonsense, but that passed after I was comfortable enough in her presence. I did have an awfully dry mouth that first 30 minutes and the cup of coffee I had hardly took care of that. I should have had a half liter of bottled water.
As I got more comfortable, I wanted to spend more and more time talking and getting to know everything about her that she cared to share. We ended up walking around downtown, basically moving from one outdoor café to the other, and always settling down to have something to drink and to talk. We spent 4 hours doing that until the weather cooled off too much and it was time to go home.
I think we did discuss just about every subject under the sun, yet I feel that we have much more to share. It is a whole new process of discovery and it is a lot of fun to discover what an other person is like. I in no way think they have to be like me and agree with my every point of view and like and dislike all my likes and dislikes. It is not necessary to be like two peas in a pod.
And yes, we do have another date next Saturday and we will have a chance to get to know each other better. I enjoy spending time in her presence and looking into her eyes, which are kind and a bit sad. I've got to make those eyes smile more often.