Saturday, September 17, 2011

It's officially Saturday...

What a wonderful day for it to be. Of course, I have no real reason to think why it should be, except that it's a weekend day and I still somehow stubbornly believe that those are better than weekdays. Old beliefs die hard and this one will too. 

Nowadays my weekdays are as nice as the weekends are because I live through them with the least amount of pain. The stress has gone out of them, so they are really no big deal anymore.

A little part of me must still think that Saturday and Sunday are superior days and until I believe differently, I will enjoy them in that capacity as much as I can. I may as well get the most out of it. There's no sense in wasting a good feeling once you've got it. I don't need to talk myself out of it.

At least there will be better daytime programs on TV than there are during the week. That always cheers me up. I do need my cultural input and my sports. I can't be deprived of them. My brain needs to be fed with interesting and entertaining information. 

Right now, though, I've very much got to tell myself to live in the moment and not anticipate the day too much. I have to enjoy the moment I'm in and the fact that I'm sitting here with a cup of coffee and my cigarettes, writing this post very leisurely. I'd almost forget to do that and it's so important. 

I'm sitting here in my pajamas and my bathrobe in an almost cool living room. All the windows are open at the top to keep airing out the apartment. It's chilly outside, but it never gets as cold inside. There's no wind blowing, so there's no draft to speak of.

I'm undecided if I'm going back to bed after I finish this. I may sit in the armchair and contemplate my navel. I actually feel very much awake and don't feel much like sleeping anymore. I'd like to have a garden to sit in and watch it become dawn. 

It's too bad that I don't like to read anymore because I could spend much leisurely time doing it. Now that I have the time, I don't have the inclination. I wonder if the urge to read will ever come back? I still treasure my books. To look at and for the memories. I just have no desire to read one. 

I hope you'll all have a great day.



Connie Rose said...

You sound wonderful. Hope you have a great weekend. Your desire to read will return, trust me. It's cyclical, like so much else. I'm experiencing a similar thing with movies (on DVD) at the moment, kind of since my favorite video shop closed. I rented a couple at another place, and get some at the library occasionally, but the urge to watch all those movies anymore has passed. xox

Gail said...

You will read again, when you are ready.

Maggie May said...

So pleased that you are living in the moment! And that the moment seems OK!
The day will be almost over by now but hope it went well.
I sometimes give reading a long holiday and sometimes I don't feel like doing crafts anymore but I might just want to watch TV. That is fine. It always comes back.
Have a good night!
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Wisewebwoman said...

I feel the same about knitting at the moment, me who would never be without her knitting in hand. The worst of it is I owe people gifts of it. Ouch.
As to reading, you will get one terrific book one day and that will hook you again.