Monday, June 25, 2012

The overcast sky.

All day long the sky has been overcast and huge gray clouds have been traveling through it making it look like it was continually going to rain but never really doing so. We were promised some sunshine at the end of the day but I haven't seen any yet and I have been waiting very patiently. I've worn my winter coat today because it was blustery outside and too uncomfortable for just my short leather jacket. And do I have to remind you that I do like to be warm at all times? 

Last week, over the course of three days, I decreased my anti-psychotic medication untill I was taking none. I decided to do it very quickly because in the past I had tried to do it gradually and never succeeded and always had to go back to the original dose. 

The first few days I was without, I was a little bit on edge, but now I feel fine and am not bothered one bit. I did inform my psychiatrist and I have an appointment with him tomorrow. 

The reasons I wanted to get off the anti-psychotics is because they always made me feel drugged and dull and I very much disliked feeling that way. I had been on them non-stop for 18 years and I was aware of the fact that they influenced my functioning very much. I thought it was about time that I found out what I was like without them and after making all these recent discoveries about myself, I was more than willing to try. 

I didn't want to tell anyone until after the fact in case there would be any doomsday thinkers that would warn me off. I wanted to find out for myself what would happen. 

I think they are out of my system now and I no longer feel drugged or dull. I'm much more alert and active. It does mean that I get a little bored more easily and I have to try harder to find ways to occupy myself. Some things that I used to do no longer interest me. Other things are more appealing. Over the course of time I will have to find satisfying things to do to keep myself busy. 

I have less interest in drinking coffee and that's because all this time I had been using the caffeine to keep me alert. It was a way to fight the sedative effect of the anti-psychotics. That's not necessary anymore now and one cup of coffee every once in a while is more than enough. I only make enough coffee for one cup at the time.

That's a total of three mediactions I have managed to quit in the last two months.

I'm happy.



CorvusCorax12 said...

good luck with it..i'm glad you didn't have much problem coming off them :)

Carole said...

Great news, Irene - maybe you could extend the topics you blog about as another interest - it would be great to see photos of the town or city where you live and learn a little bit about it.

Keep on keeping on. You are doing so well.

Rob-bear said...

I am so glad the de-medication process is going well, and that you are not doing it on your own (i.e., that you keep talking with your psychiatrist).

I have reached the point were I can cut one of my medications in half, and I am doing that, albeit carefully. I'll tell my doctor when I see her next.

Now, to see where your mind will take you!

Blessings and Bear hugs.

Maggie May said...

Well done! Yes..... its best not to go on about it before you do it. That way you don't lose face if it goes wrong.

Its been lovely here today. Hope its going your way.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

VioletSky said...

good for you for making the effort.
I hope this does help you find some joie de vivre.