Thursday, June 21, 2012

Continued change...

The last couple of weeks I have come to some conclusions about  things in my life that were important to me and that determined how I felt about the past and about where I am now. It resulted in me having a lot of peace of mind and I think that is one of the reasons that I reached a milestone that is allowing me to have all this change happening in my attitude right now. 

I find that my outlook and attitude  have altered quite a bit and that I'm looking with a whole new set of eyes at a lot of things. This is quite refreshing and causes many pleasant surprises because even I don't know how I will react to any given situation. What I do and say are new to me too, but so far I am happy with the outcomes. I haven't embarrassed myself yet and I do stand behind my words and actions.

It's always pleasant to reach a new stage of growth, especially because I've been waiting patiently for it to happen and had almost given up hope for it to actually take place. I think I had come to accept things the way they were and just at that time change happened. It seems when you accept your situation it does. You must be mentally ready for it then. The timing couldn't have been better anyway. 

I feel as if my eyes are bigger and see better and as if I observe more. I hear other people's words better and the understanding of them is more clear too. I have woken up and am no longer lulled into a false sense of security. This means that all things are more clear to me, the past as well as the future, and I can no longer just ignorantly live in the moment and hide there. I do have to plan some sort of a life. 

Taking ownership of and responsibility for my life have been big things that I've done lately. They were some of the last deeds that I had to do. I come to them late but have been aware of them for a long time. I never fully understood the meaning of them and how to apply them to my life. I'm fully aware of what it means to do that now and it feels very liberating. I stand taller because of it.



Friko said...

That's so good to hear, Irene.
I am glad that you are on a journey of self-discovery and the the road is going uphill.

Tell us a little about how this works out in practice? Spelling things out can help; it has helped me in the past. Only if you feel like it, of course.

It would be good to share in your thoughts.

Maggie May said...

Its good that you feel that you have *found* yourself.
Is that a photo of you on the beach!!!!!!!
Today is cold and wet..... the longest day. Awful.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Wisewebwoman said...

I am so happy for you Irene - it sounds like you have broken some ceiling.

If you are up for it I would like to hear more :)


Carole said...

You are a star - 2 posts in a row with no coffee - so glad you are starting to feel a bit better. Hope today is a good one too.

Anonymous said...

You sound so very content! That's great! It's hard to be patient waiting for a breakthrough, but as you say, it comes when you're ready and at the best possible time. Hope all continues to go well for you!

Naperville Now said...

so very glad for you. may you always stand tall.