After getting off the anti-psychotics completely, I did have to go back on a small dose of them but they did not cause the unpleasant side effects that they did for a little while and I'm now completely adjusted to this dose. It's been a pleasant journey of discovery and getting to know myself all over again.
I am very rarely scared or sad like it turned out I was so very often. It's the near absence of them that made me realize it. If I ever am, it's because I'm having a momentary energy dip and it's quickly resolved by drinking a cup of coffee. Fear and sadness are not emotions that are hovering in the back of my mind all the time any longer.
I'm mostly very alert and upbeat and fearless. I am now who I´ve wanted to be for a long time. I´m not intimidated by life anymore or by the details that are involved in living it. I am not overwhelmed and things are back to their proper proportions and manageable.
I suppose I get to be the optimist I wanted to be all along. It´s nice that I was prepared for it.