Being absolutely mellow...

It's with some pleasure that I sit here in the middle of the night drinking my cup of coffee. I have read the blogs that I'm going to read and now I'm ready for the next phase. That is, of course, writing an interesting enough blog post. I don't know if I'm quite capable of it, but I'm certainly in a good enough mood to try it. There's just the little question of pulling it off. 

I've slept enough for now and feel quite wide awake. It's not that I slept that many hours, but I slept quite intensely and very well. I didn't have any weird dreams to upset my sleep either. That is kind of a relief. I could do without dreams altogether. None of them is very welcome. They are all too odd. I'd like to remember not one of them. It must be very pleasant to have what seems to be a dreamless night. 

Ever since I wrote about my craving for cheese, I have the taste of it in the back of my mouth and I have been walking around with a longing for it all day and night. The Exfactor is going to do the groceries this morning, so I won't have to wait much longer for that much wanted chunk of cheese. I will be able to satisfy that craving soon enough. I'm looking forward to it. 

I don't think my cravings have so much to do with the weather, because it has been nice, as they have to do with the time of year and the angle of the sunlight. That must trigger some hormonal changes that tell you to start hoarding your body fat for the winter. That makes sense, doesn't it? I feel like some primeval woman who listens to the call of nature. We must have those urges lying not so deep within us still. 

Yesterday was a nice enough day. I got through it without any mishaps like I often do. There's not much that can go wrong in the simplified version of my life. As long as my mind treats me right, there are no complaints from me. It's when it gets cluttered and crazy up in my head that things go to hell in a hand basket.  Quitting the tranquilizers and increasing the anti depressives are the two best things I've done in a long time.

There are daisies and dandelions in the fields again and some purple clover and wild yarrow too. This makes my walks with the dog more cheerful. I always look to see how many of them there are and if they are spreading at all. I also look for other wildflowers but am unable to identify them. I still haven't got that book that I need in order to do so.

It's time for me to go back to bed. I always manage to sleep a few more hours in the morning but am able to wake up not too late. I do become coherent soon enough to get dressed and walk the dog at a decent enough time. It's to the point now that he counts on that. 

Have a lovely day all of you.

Ciao,

Nora