Is it alright?

For a change I am not in a super cheerful mood, but I think that's acceptable also, don't you think? I can't always be surrounded by moonbeams and shooting stars. I am just a bit down, but I don't think it is serious enough for me to be very worried about. I think it is just a temporary situation that I may even get over shortly if I make a good pot of coffee now.

 

Today has not exactly been the happiest of days and I have had to deal with some disappointments. Not everything always goes according to plan and when one thing goes wrong, you can be sure that one or two other things do too. When your faith in yourself is tested, it is tested well. It is like a trial by fire, and if you get through it, you get time off for good behavior.

 

I am sure whatever irritating and bothersome things I am facing now, will be taken care of and by two weeks from now, I won't even worry about them anymore and possibly smile and chalk them up to another lesson learned. This seems to be the year for them, when nothing comes easy and my patience and fortitude get tested and tried. I hope I am a good pupil, so that by the end of the year it will really and truly be over and not turn out to be 7 bad years. 

 

Maybe I have to break a mirror for good luck and not walk under ladders.

 

I have decided to not join the Fibromyalgia Patient Foundation, because they blame everything but the crack in the kitchen sink on fibromyalgia. Their list of symptoms is enormously long and I just don't believe in it. I would rather stick to the shorter one that the professionals use. I think sometimes patient support groups can be helpful, but they all tend to get tunnel vision and loose their objectivity. At least it seems that this Dutch one has.

 

I am having a pretty darn good cup of coffee now and I am pretending that it is cheering me up. I will probably drink several and then walk Tyke. It is not as cold outside as it was yesterday and therefor I am not in as much pain. Still, I am dressed in warm layers and as a result, I invented a whole new outfit. My imagination had not much to do with it. It took form quite by accident while I poked around inside my closet and pulled things out that looked warm enough to wear. Denim and the color red are the main theme.

 

Since I have changed from the summer duvet to the winter one, I am sleeping better and longer in the morning and the reason I still have to get up several times at night, is that I have to use the toilet. If it weren't for that, I would be sound asleep all night. I can't not drink anything in the evening because I am always so thirsty from the medications. This results in those trips to the toilet and the fact that I have a weak bladder anyway.

 

Old age is a terrible burden.