Lining up my ducks.

The first thing my psychiatrist noticed about me was that I had lost so much weight and also being a medical doctor, he immediately started questioning me about how that had happened. I think I was able to reassure him that I am alright and eating healthily and that I am not on my death bed and I do appreciate his concern. He is a caring person and very much involved with how wel I do on all fronts. 

In the course of the conversation, I got him up to date on the latest state of the affairs in my life and I did this in a very matter of fact way. There was no need to do it in any other way and I left all the drama out. 

He wanted to hear a bit more about Marianne's death, of course, and how I was dealing with that and I told him that I was going through all the normal stages of the process of grief but that I was actually doing well. 

I also told him about my decision to break off the relationship with my younger sister and my reasons for that and how satisfied I feel about that. He quesrioned me a little further about that but didn't seem to think that I had made a mistake. It does feel like a natural result of a long series of events with the dramatic ending being the ones that involved Marianne's death. 

I told him that I will be moving back to my hometown and when that most likely will happen and he immediately thought of the practical medical side of it for my sake. It's very important that I get a good psychiatrist who has good knowledge of the medication that I use and who doesn't so much want to give me psycho-therapy but just support me and give me practical advice and who has good knowledge of bi-polarity..

He already told me the process which I will have to go through and it doesn't seem too complicated. I know where to go in Emmen and which department to contact. I don't think I'll really run into any problems. Everything will resolve itself. 

I have an appointment with him in another 3 months but am of course free to see him before that time if it is necessary and I can always email him with whatever question I have. I never do feel that I am out there on my own without any help.  I have felt differently in the past when I had another psychiatrist who was supposed to be very responsive but turned out not to be. 

Thank goodness for competent help in the medical profession. It does exist and I am going to miss my psychiatrist but doubtlessly will find another as competent.